Expectations

I have realised that the root of all miseries and sorrows in my life is from expectations. Be it from my life partner, my parents, siblings or even from my friends
Dont kno y as a person it is important for me that there is some give and take in every relationship....and all my relationships go downhill..as soon as i ask..for something...it can be anything..time, support..anything..if i ask...
I ask because i expect..and then...loneliness...
Its not that they are not there for me..but they are there when they think i need them..but what if i dont need them then..what if i dont think That issue was imp. enough...what if i think This is when i need u .........
Sadness....
Expectations....they just kill u....Wish i could be a saint and not expect anything from life and could just take whatever comes my way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Change

8 Months into it...a little more self assured.....Day 1 was the worst, now on Day XYZ..am feeling less lost.

No matter wat i did..reading, listening, talking to other would be and existing parents nothing prepared me for the shock to come...

Since that day everything in my life has changed....Lets say more good has happened,,but too many things have changed. and I think the starting 3-4 months were the worst becoz i wanted my old life back..and soooooooooo badddddd.

My wonderful partner P...he has changed the most...from being the best of frnds..(we never thought we were husband and wife)..we r more of parents now.....hardly any romance left....he has changed...not such a good life partner any more..more of a boss....but a wonderful wonderful daddyy to my lovely baby..

So not many complaints...but wish some how i was better prepared for thisssss